What Gives Me Hope

For All Our Angel Dads

It is my prayer that this Father's Day we will all remember the Angel Dads. They have shed tears of sorrow and pain - and yet they continue to be a source of strength for us mothers.

A Father's Thoughts...

O precious, tiny, sweet little one
You will always be to me
So perfect, pure, and innocent
Just as you were meant to be.

We dreamed of you and
of your life
And all that it would be.
We waited and longed
for you to come
And join our family.

We never had the chance to play
To laugh, to rock, to wiggle.
We long to hold you,
touch you now
And listen to you giggle.

I’ll always be your father,
She’ll always be your mom.
You will always be our child
The child we had.

But now you’re gone...
but yet you’re here.
We’ll sense you everywhere.
You are our sorrow and our joy.
There’s love in every tear.

Just know our love goes
deep and strong.
We’ll forget you never--
The child we had,
And will have forever.

--Author Unknown

The following was written by my husband... in memory of Ethan.

Our Little Boy

He came into this world so quiet and pure.

With tiny hands and little feet

Oh so perfect – that’s for sure.

He never moved a muscle,

He never made a sound,

The doctor said his heart was strong,

Then faded as time went on.

We realized he had been called back home,

A body is all he came to get.

Sure we wanted him to stay and play,

But a grander plan was in the works that day.

We say our good-byes and shed some tears,

Then smile because we know –

He will always be our little boy.

Good-bye Ethan. We will see you soon.

-- James Campbell

My Forever Friend

My husband and I will celebrate our third anniversary next week. As I reflect on our life together, I realize we have been through a lot together. Yes we have had a lifetime of trials in only three years of marriage, but we have also shared a great deal of laughter. My husband truly is my best friend. He is my confidant, my hero, my strength, and a great example of faith. He is the reason for my smile, my soul mate, and my eternal companion. It is because of him I am Ethan's mother. I look forward to the many years we will have together in this life, and the eternity that we will share together with our son. Happy anniversary sweetheart. I love you!

Service to Lift Sorrow

I believe that God gives us trial for our own growth and learning. One of the greatest lessons to be gained in this life is to love, to give, and to uplift those around us. Through trials we are taught.
Only after your heart has been broken can you understand the sorrow of others. With this understanding comes empathy and a desire to serve. It is through service that we learn to truly care for others. It is through service that you can find peace as you learn the love God has not only for others, but also for yourself. "You will find that the true key to happiness is to labor for the happiness of others" (True to the Faith, p. 162)

Help to Heal

I have received a request to share ideas of how others can help those who mourn. I have listed for you the numerous acts of kindness that I have received from family and friends. Other ideas can be found in articles listed under "how others can help" on the sidebar of this page.

• My mother-in-law bought me a pair of cozy pajamas and several boxes of tissue.
• My grandmother crocheted a beautiful blanket to bury our son in.
• My mother sewed a tiny white jumpsuit - also used to bury our son in.
• We received numerous meals
• Several visitors came to express their sympathy and offer help
• My sister understood that in my time of grief, it was difficult for me to concentrate. She made several phone-calls to help me figure out insurance.
• I received numerous plants and flowers that were reminders that people cared, and which brought life into our home.
• Our neighbors took us out for dinner
• Friends listened to me tell my story and were willing to look at pictures of our son - this was important to me as I wanted his life and existence to be recognized and remembered.

Some things to avoid include:

• Comparisons of losses
• Asking when the couple plans to "try again"
• Saying "you'll have more"
• Ignoring the loss

I understand that knowing what to say or do can be difficult - most people do not want to offend the bereaved. However, ignoring the loss can be hurtful to those you care for. If you cannot think of anything to do or say, a simple hug will often do the trick. You could even express "I don't know what to say." Acknowledgment of loss is important - no matter the loss (miscarriage, stillbirth, or infant death).

When helping others in their time of grief, we can look to the Savior.

The Savior provided the perfect example of how to respond to the pain and mourning of a loved one. After Lazarus’s death, Christ traveled to Bethany to be with Martha and Mary. To Martha He offered His testimony of life after death and asked her to reaffirm her testimony. When Mary expressed her grief over the loss of her brother, the scriptures simply state, “Jesus wept” (John 11:35).

Mother's Day Thoughts

Remembering You on Mother's Day

No little hugs or kisses
to wake me up on this morn.
No special card or roses sent my way.
Bittersweet feelings, at least a thousand tears;
Quietly, I celebrated you this day.

I am not like the others,
Though I still wear the name.
I cannot hold you in my arms,
But I love you just the same.

I knelt beside your resting place,
Though I knew you were not there.
I prayed to God in Heaven:
A peace I found in knowing,
sweet child, you're in His care.

To see a mother with her baby-
How my heart breaks in two;
But never would I trade this pain
If it meant there had been no you.

At times I feel I cannot go on-
Living this life without you.
Yet hidden behind my deepest grief
There is joy unexpainably true.

For my [son], you will always be a blessing from above.
Your brief existence has bestowed on me a name I cherish dear.

And although this day is not what I imagined it to be,
I will treasure it because of you-
MY FIRST MOTHER'S DAY.

--- Jana Spigener

Hurtful Reminders

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